trapped

an invisible prison without walls or locks
I'm out in the open yet shut in a box
I walk through my days with a smile on my face
it hides my true feelings, it hides my disgrace

inside I feel hurt, I feel loss and great pain
I hide it away but it wells up again
the people around me they all fade to grey
I listen to them all but can't hear what they say

when someone else’s actions are the cause of your pain
you have somewhere to focus your anger and disdain
but when the actions were yours therein lies the rub
for anguish overwhelms any thoughts that are good

once I would dream of finding true loves bliss
finding one that could melt me with simply a kiss
someone I could talk to for hours on end
who'd be not just my lover but also my best friend

I put these thoughts behind me for they have no place
not in my mind, in my heart nor shown on my face
my dreams locked away without hope of a key
they are hidden so deep they cannot be set free

my path has been chosen, fate has dealt his cruel hand
surrounded by people, alone I will stand
so here's where I'll stay, trapped here in this box
in my invisible prison without walls or locks